Friday, November 11, 2016

On Being Normal

It's a beautiful Autumn day, just past noon. I'm pretty sure the sky is clear because I see crisp shadows cast upon the fallen leaves in my back yard as the Sun's rays make their way through bare November tree limbs. If it's not clear, then it's mostly sunny anyway, I suppose. It should be a good day for birds, too. They're probably pretty active on a fine day like today, but I really can't be sure because their songs are muted by the R-13 wall insulation and double-pane windows that keep me so comfortable this time of year. And even if that weren't the case, the dishwasher is running in the kitchen so all I can hear is its "swish" and "rumble" as I sit at my dining room table typing on a fully-charged laptop that is plugged into the wall and connected wirelessly to a router that is cabled into Comcast's high-speed Internet at $80/month. But anyway, the birds are probably happy today, this typical day in the life of a typical American in the year 2016.

Normal. It's all very normal. I got up this morning, not to the sound of birds chirping at dawn as I did in my tent days, but because I was just done sleeping. I had no idea what time it was so I walked into the kitchen and glanced at the digital clock on the electric stove. It was close to 7:30am. The birds would have finished their morning songs some time ago, but that thought never crossed my mind because that's not something that normal people think about. I looked out the window and wondered what the temperature was. I don't have a thermometer hanging outside my door like I did in my tent days because it doesn't really matter what it's like outside anyway. What matters is the temperature inside my house, which is always right at 70 degrees, maintained automatically, day and night, Summer or Winter.

I've been out of my tent for nearly two years now. It took me that much time to decide to start writing again. I had to figure out what I wanted to say, but I think I've got a pretty good idea now. And I think this Tent Living blog is the place to say it, not because I still live in a tent, but because tent living was but one chapter of a story that I'm ready to continue now. It's the story of the multitude of social constructs that mankind has created for themselves, and our capacity to accept them. It's about the struggle within each of us to reconcile two inner voices. Two voices that I believe each of us hears, in some degree, for it's a human condition and we are all much the same in that regard. It's about the struggle to find internal peace and happiness while living a normal life. To find beauty and contentment and meaning is a man-made world. To shine brilliantly right smack dab in the middle of being normal.

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  1. Great words, i look forward to reading more!

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  2. Mr. Shilling
    I am sorry you were not in court for me to apologies to you in person. I talk to Mrs. Night & Mr. Night and told both how very sorry I was for getting involved with this mess, as I would like to say the same to you, I do believe your way in living as I did it for years too, but a little different I lived off the earth with no tent and build my place in living off what the earth had to offer at where ever I wanted to call home. This whole mass was Allen Abdullah and I told Mrs. Night I would help her in any way I can. And if you go after him on civil or criminal you can count on me helping you as much as I possibly can. I am dying of cancer so if I where you I would get whatever you need now before it’s too late. Again, I am sorry for everything I caused you. and by the way everything Detective Clark told you & the Night family in what I read was all lies.

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    1. I'm sorry to hear that you have cancer. And I accept your apology. I suppose that if you now had it to do over again, you wouldn't do what you did. So it's up to me now to offer my forgiveness. I long suspected Allen and Tracy were behind all of this, but it's too easy to put all the blame on them, for it was you who took the harmful action. It was you who orchestrated the raid on my home, with apparent disregard for my safety. That's why I have always blamed you for the incident. But I do accept your apology and I wish you well. And thanks for taking the time to write to me.

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